Friday, December 31, 2010
Reflection
Boy i feel like crying.
i hate year ends. i really do. its just this thing about leaving years. I just read through my whole blog, especially for the past whole year, God has been so very faithful in teaching me about Him, and picking me up each time i fall!
As this year comes to a close, Lord i lift it up to you. As i embark on a new year, let the things i have learnt not be forgotten, let me encounter you in a new way, Lord will you lead me on, and go before me! All this i pray in Jesus name, Amen!
came at2:32 PM
When i was typing out the title, the suggested one(from previous posts) was God in our studying, and then i realised, God is really taking me on a journey here.
God in our everything. What does that truly mean? Recently i found myself compartmentalizing my life, something i thought i would never do! For that instant, it was as if i thought to myself,
God is irrelevant in this issue. What a grave mistake.
You know how sometimes, we pray when we are making big decisions regarding ministry or church, or even when we making any big decisions, when we are stuck in a life crisis, but how often do we pray truly in all circumstances, as we study, as we eat, as we go about doing the mundane things of life? For me personally, i've cultivated the habit of praying whenever im alone with nothing to do, like when im walking alone, traveling, in the shower and even when taking a crap! So i would be the last person i would think to be guilty of compartmentalizing my life from God, but lo and behold, he has been faithful and has shown me how!
For even that instant where i did not think of committing everything in prayer, for not acknowledging or realising Your sovereignty over it, Lord forgive me! Help me to know always that You are Sovereign, You are Love, You are Wise!
What a privilege to carry,
everything thing to God in Prayer!
came at12:38 PM
reading from Growing Deep in God, people in OT learnt their theology from stories, stories their parents told them in awe and wonder and deep personal appreciation of how God was real to them and their forefathers. They caught their theology from these stories. like God saves! God cares! above all, God is Sovereign, God is Love, God is Wise!
And with that i have my own story to tell!
I make reference to the buses that we took at china airport to our planes. They come and leave only when they are filled or when they have to leave. i remember me, waiting with Eddie Dong! (a guy i met at the airport and was speaking to), we there, the bus was packed, there was space. but we were separated from the rest of the team, the time wasnt right. it was either grab the bus with him, or risk him getting on the bus and the bus leaving without me but with him! But "God only wise!" As JI Packer's Knowing God puts it, and i trust that God is soverign over every situation, he is in control, he is love, working all things for my good, and he is wise, working all things for according to His good will and purpose. and in that i trust, and just like the bus, i believe, whatever the case, the right bus will come perfectly accoding to God's will, me entering with Eddie, enabling us to have a large open comfortable bus to talk in, and extended time too.
For in all, i will trust that you are Sovereign, and i hope you will too.
Of course this may hardly make sense to most of you, but to future me, i pray you understand what im saying now for sentiments' sake!
Signing off,
"Old Testament me"
came at1:23 AM
