Wednesday, June 23, 2010
This is the Power of Christ in me
A very short post today, im waiting for my food to settle before i go bathe. then my sister eat slow, so i use her com...(she listens to justin bieber! forgive her for she knows not what she has done...just kiddding, haha i really have nothing against him)
anyway yes. Its one again another of those situations where a fresh revelation dawned upon me! as i was sitting outside the exam hall, waiting to go in. Every student around me(and i really mean EVERY), was either panicking somehow or like frantically trying to get some last minute revision done. And i was just sitting there, calm like never before. In fact, the only time i was close to this calm, was yesterday before my SS paper, cause i was mentally prepared to fail. If there was one thing not absolutely calm in my today, it wasn't anxiety, it was excitement.
Why, you may ask. (i shall not post like a normal blog, haha quite exciting.) it all happened, a few months ago, after my Prelim 1. Besides having a fluke failure(this fluke failure being a negative fluke, Physics), i personally reckoned, i had a fluke C5, this for my chem. i really had no idea at all what was going on during the whole paper, and i was actually pleasantly surprised with a C5, and that, is not normal. (why is her mouse so sensitive?!) anyyways, during the PTM, my chem teacher said this, (slightly paraphrased)"Your son is blah blah blah(very positive comments=D), and he did generally well for this prelim! judging from statistics, if he continues to work hard, he should be able to get an A2!" This, actually quite irritated me, he spoke as if, getting an A2 for me was SUCH a HUGE ACHIEVEMENT. And i really didnt wanna see that happen. Hence, for this whole prelim, i focused greatly on my chem, to the extent that i neglecting everything else(DONT EVER DO THAT)!
So here i've finished about say close to 2/3s of the 10 year series, and i really have revised all that i could. i cant even say, "i should've used the time i spent on other my humans to study my chem" cause i already did that. i had put in my well, close to 100% for this. and although i dont claim to be absolutely knowledgeable in chem right now, i would say i was amply prepared. (and im not claiming im gonna like, do super well for the paper, it was tough. haha.) But here's my point. I was absolutely calm then, sitting outside that exam hall, actually feeling excited. why? because i had done all i could, i had peace within, assurance within, and immediately a revelation dawned upon me so clear, its amazing how God chooses to use things like these to speak to me.
It was a beautiful parallel to life! Right there all around me, were people who hadn't so completely done their revision probably because they indulged themselves in fun during the hols. They were insecure, and realised that their times up, now, all scrambling for help. It is like all those people, who spent their lives living the way they want to. and when they near death, or before death, or worse, before the judgment throne of God, they become desperate! But by then, its too late, for they have rejected God all their lives, and by then, it would be too late(though they would still reject God even then!)!
However, i, on the other hand, was calm, and even excited for what lies ahead. and amidst the paper, i did not feel disappointed, and im happy with how things went. It is like the beautiful perfect assurance i will have before i die, while people fret for the mystery that lies ahead, i know full well where im heading, and with a life fully consecrated to God, reaching that which i have been living for, to finally die, and be reunited with my Father, Brother, and King, bearing the family likeness that i have been promised(Rom 8:29, Heb 10:14). The only thing i feeling i could possibly have, is excitement for that life ahead! And now as i live i can say with full conviction,
"To live is Christ, to die is gain!"(Phil 1:21) That i will continue to live for His glory, and toil for His sake, all for my future glory that lies ahead. This is the Power of Christ in me.
In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.
In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
Sola Christus!
came at7:55 PM
