Tuesday, June 22, 2010
God in our studying?
Okay, i really couldnt think of a better title. There are like so many things that i want to blog about, that i couldnt be bothered at all, but just, and really just, a revelation dawned upon me so deep, that i just had to come here to blog about it. (plus i dont feel like studying anyway.)
O faithful readers, do you remember my post about Ecclesiastes? Vanity of Vanities? i had a point there, and the post explored, somewhat, how life was futile, and useless without God. Yet looking at it from a slightly (and i do mean slightly) different angle, you can see it this way-
If God is not in my toiling, i toil in vain!and to put it in context of my life currently, yeap, you guessed it,
If God is not in my studying, I study in vain! Im gonna let that sink in first.
As you guys know, im having my prelims now! and prior to my prelims, i have been studying quite hard(for my sciences at least... with the exception of the Youth Camp week which i must say, took quite a toll.). Plus, i cant study at home, so i usually study in church, and usually get home late, so sometimes,i just do a devotional and then sleep. And this cycle sorta repeats itself, though not entirely always. like sometimes i'd also read the bible, and other times, i'd dump both. For in the flesh i am still weak and imperfect, but thank God that His grace is sufficient for me, and His power is perfected in my weakness!
But yes, i have seemed to put studying subconsciously as a priority in life, over time with God, over studying the one most important and enriching thing ever- the Holy Writ.
I guess its worse for me in some sense because i suppose maybe some of you, in order to motivate yourself to study, have found your purpose for studying in God. But, this is gonna sound weird, but i enjoy studying. (and i only realised this when i actually started studying...should've started earlier...hahaha) But then today, (it started from Sunday actually, but today it was oh so strong a conviction) i question dawned upon me, why do i study? Cause i like it? Why do you study? to get a good grades? and then what? a good job? for what? to enjoy life? and then what? die?
To gain all the knowledge, what for? The bible says this three times explicitly, and im sure many times more inferentially, "For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul?"(Mark 8:36, Luke 9:25, Matt 16:26) And i saw myself subtly falling into this. If i do not study for the glory of God, what use is my studying ultimately? it would be like another of my useless works that would be burned up in the flame, leaving behind nothing but ashes before the throne of God.
The cliche phrase is true,"Christianity is not a religion, its a relationship." For the core of christianity is this, that we are
adopted as Children of God, through first and foremost the propitiation of out sins,
by grace through faith in Christ Jesus our Lord. Now let that sink in for a moment too, for the richness of that is probably the greatest blessing of all!
This relationship between Father and son, needs very much to be invested into, and should be top priority above all! 1 Cor 10:31, do I truly do all things for His glory? Do I honour God by being skillful in my work?(Pro 22:29) Am i a good steward of what He has given me? Do i remain humble knowing that all i have is given by Him, and that all i have, is Him? Do other people see me not as me, but as Christ in me? (2 Cor 13:5)
God, be my everything.
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