Saturday, May 29, 2010
My lost Companion
I am terribly depressed at the moment. my trusty friend who was always with me, in thick and thin, giving me advice, and being a great role model for me. spending time with me, accompanying me when i was bored. even in school! especially during chinese lessons and sometimes even chem! he would never fail to be there when i needed him most. But alas, he has gone, his term has ended. i have with mixed feelings, completed reading the biography of Aiden Wilson Tozer, and it was a sad, sad day.
really, for those of you who have known me for a longer time, you would know that there are about 3 things i probably hate in life- Water. walking. and reading. It is very hard for a book to interest me, and should it not, its torture to read it. Yet this biography, was one of the most blessed things that i have read.
to me, a biography is one of the most boring things that anyone can read. i mean, wouldnt you think so? But what caused me to read this book, is (of course ultimately God, haha) but seriously, is my missions leader from YWAM, Tee. He was the one who recommended me the book(apparently i just talked to him, and he doesnt remember a thing) but nonetheless, its wonderful to see how God orchestrates everything for my good!
Really the book has been such a blessing. The interesting thing about this book, is that not only does it interest me, but it is a very light book, yet filled with many many insights that i have picked up. i think the wonderful thing about the biography is, its like reading an interesting story of a man after God's heart, and as you ponder over it, you draw the lessons yourself. I dont know how to explain it, but i just learnt so so much from it.
infact there were alot of times, where just after i have learnt something from it, it is almost immediately applicable, either to me, or to the people around me. how amazing God is!
This man has in some ways been my mentor across these few weeks, and has taught me many many things. but one of the things he taught me, was his pure desire to know God. He was not only a man of theology, but more so a man of prayer. He loved God and loved prayer, and loved meditation of His word, resulting in praise and worship and once again prayer. He forsook many many things to meet his responsibilities, to to them to the best of his abilities, to have his relationship with God in his private study, like time with friends "pleasure" but really, he didnt sacrifice much, for what he forsook was the nothing compared to what he gained, for in His presence there is fullness of joy, and at His right hand there are pleasures forevermore!(Psa 16:11)
There was nothing he valued more, than time with God. In his whole life, he only missed his speaking engagements twice(you might think, thats 1 time too many. but you must understand, he probably had way more than a hundred speaking engagements in his life time) and it wasnt because of sickness. One of which was because he was playing checkers with his sons(HAHA), but the other was because he was so engrossed in prayer, he entirely did not know the time. I want to personally walk so close with God just like the way he did and even closer! i want to know firsthand, what caused him to make all those sacrifices, and just as he did i want to do what it takes as well.
David said he wouldnt give what didnt cost him much to God, so neither shall i hold back all that needs to be done. Hence im going on a computer fast for the next, 40 days. so i seek your prayer for me. thank you!
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